Life Part III

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Ini tentang hidup secara am dan apa saya fikir tentangnya

Terpulang nak baca atau tidak ayat2 seterusnya

Dan saya akan menulis dalam Bahasa Inggeris 

Bukan sebab mengada atau sebagainya tapi sebab kadang2 otak saya lagi senang nak sampaikan apa yang ingin saya sampaikan dalam Bahasa Inggeris (terutamanya kalau otak tengah haywire)

During my secondary school years, I never thought a lot what my life would be

I always thought somehow I'll get a job, get married, have kids, and so on

At that time, I don't really want to think about all of that because I'm the type that tends to overthink things so it always end up with me scared of what the future hold for me

Honestly, even now I sort of have a phobia of the future

But now, since I'm more or less officially an adult, I have no choice but to think about what I want to do with my life

I have lots of questions about my life these past few months.

Do I want to do the job I'm doing right now for the rest of my life?

Is this what I really wanted for myself?

Is this all life have to offer me?

Am I brave enough to drop everything I have and try to fulfill my dream(s)?

Do I really want to get married?

Who am I in this world?

And many, many more these type of questions kept coming to my mind

Some has been answered

Some are not

I don't know why I kept thinking about all of these

Maybe because now I'm a bit out of my comfort zone since I started working about 5 months ago

Or maybe because the reality of life has just slapped me on my face

Or maybe the simple fact that I like to torture myself thinking about it

All I know is, all of that are a valid questions and worth finding the answers

Even if the answer nearly make you cry yourself to sleep.

10 perkara tak best

10 perkara tak best yang boleh berlaku ketika anda sedang tersangkut dalam kesesakan lalu lintas:

1. Perut anda membuat keputusan untuk memberontak kerana makanan tengahari anda yang tak best

2. Pundi kencing anda membuat keputusan bahawa ia tak dapat menampung bebanan lagi

3. Tangki minyak hampir kosong kerana kealpaan diri sendiri untuk check meter minyak sebelum memulakan perjalanan

4. Kereta anda tiba2 membuat keputusan tidak suka anda lagi dan berhenti tanpa sebab di tengah jalan.

5. Radio di dalam kereta anda membuat keputusan untuk tidak berfungsi tiba-tiba

6. Anda bergaduh dengan sesiapa yang ketika itu berada di dalam kereta dengan anda dan masing2 taknak bercakap

7. Anda sedang mengantuk tahap gaban disebabkan cicak tokek kat belakang rumah mengganggu tidur malam anda

8. Anda memandu kereta manual. Enough said.

9. Ada super idiot memandu di depan kereta anda. Tengah2 jam pun nak buat perangai super idiot dia tu.

10. Gabungan perkara no.5 dan no. 6

Sekian.

It's easier to hate...

It's easier to hate than to love
Don't you think so?

When you hate something or someone, it doesn't matter if the feeling is reciprocated or not
When you hate something or someone, you will not get hurt if the feeling is not returned
When you hate something or someone, even if the feeling is returned, you'll gain or lose nothing
When you hate something or someone, you'll feel relieved if you lost it
When you hate something or someone, you don't have to care about it
When you hate something or someone, there's only a slim chance of you getting hurt

So in short, to hate is to not get hurt?


Love will hurt you no matter what
Still, it is the thing that people always try to find

Love...What is love?
Why do people keep searching and longing for it?


I'll repeat what I wrote before
"I do believe in the thing called love
It's just I never believe it'll happen to me"
No, I'm not being pessimistic
I'm just being realistic and practical
Realistic because only I know what my heart is capable of
Practical because, well, let's just leave at that