Life Part III

Post ini akan menjadi post yang agak boring

Ini tentang hidup secara am dan apa saya fikir tentangnya

Terpulang nak baca atau tidak ayat2 seterusnya

Dan saya akan menulis dalam Bahasa Inggeris 

Bukan sebab mengada atau sebagainya tapi sebab kadang2 otak saya lagi senang nak sampaikan apa yang ingin saya sampaikan dalam Bahasa Inggeris (terutamanya kalau otak tengah haywire)

During my secondary school years, I never thought a lot what my life would be

I always thought somehow I'll get a job, get married, have kids, and so on

At that time, I don't really want to think about all of that because I'm the type that tends to overthink things so it always end up with me scared of what the future hold for me

Honestly, even now I sort of have a phobia of the future

But now, since I'm more or less officially an adult, I have no choice but to think about what I want to do with my life

I have lots of questions about my life these past few months.

Do I want to do the job I'm doing right now for the rest of my life?

Is this what I really wanted for myself?

Is this all life have to offer me?

Am I brave enough to drop everything I have and try to fulfill my dream(s)?

Do I really want to get married?

Who am I in this world?

And many, many more these type of questions kept coming to my mind

Some has been answered

Some are not

I don't know why I kept thinking about all of these

Maybe because now I'm a bit out of my comfort zone since I started working about 5 months ago

Or maybe because the reality of life has just slapped me on my face

Or maybe the simple fact that I like to torture myself thinking about it

All I know is, all of that are a valid questions and worth finding the answers

Even if the answer nearly make you cry yourself to sleep.