Sunday, January 16, 2011

Soalan untuk diri sendiri: Siapa aku?

Siapa aku? Apa aku buat kat sini?


Pernah tak tanya soalan tu kat diri sendiri?
Ye, nampak cam ayat standard scene dalam movie/novel/yang seangkatan dengannya
Scene di mana salah sorang watak accident dan bila dia sedar, dia tak ingat dia siapa

Tapi, pernah fikir tak kalau benda tu jadi kat kita
Kalaulah tiba2 satu hari kita terbangun dan kita tak tau apa2 langsung pasal diri kita
Kita terpaksa bergantung kepada orang lain untuk tau pasal diri kita sendiri
Dan kita taktau apa yang mereka beritahu tu betul ke tak
We can't verify whatever people tell us about ourself

Kita bangun, kita tanya kita siapa
Diorang jawab nama kita
Pastu kita akan tanya apa jadi kat kita dan sebagainya
Diorang jawab semuanya
Pastu kita akan mula tanya pasal life kita sebelum accident
Dan diorang akan jawab
Tapi, apa yang diorang jawab tu, betul ke pasal kita?
Kita nak percaya atau tak?

Sekararng, mungkin boleh lah kita jawab
"percaya je lah apa mereka cakap"
tapi kalau kita alami sendiri
mungkin kita akan penuh dengan rasa doubt

Sekarang aku adalah Dot3 yang bekerja di PJS dan masih ahli MSC
Dot3 yang minat bersukan dan Kpop dan Kdrama dan personality bordering on tomboyish
Tapi mungkin bila aku dah accident dan lupa pasal siapa aku
Akan ada orang yang mungkin nak ambil kesempatan (atau hanya untuk humour; termasuk la family yang mungkin mahu aku jadi seperti yang mereka nak)
dan beritahu bahawa aku adalah Manusia A yang tak bekerja dan bukan ahli MSC
Manusia A yang sangat feminine dan minat drama Melayu dan rock kapak dan menjahit

What if?

Sunday, January 9, 2011

We're different, but we're not wrong

We're different, but we're not wrong - CL of 2NE1 in OSEN interview

I like the interview answer given above
Why?
Because I experienced what happened when being different from others
Initially, I was bothered by it
But as time goes on, I don't give it a worth anymore
The thing is, no matter where I went
Or who I met, I always end up being a bit different from others
The difference was whether they accept it or not
I was lucky when I met those who accepted it
But those who do not, well *shrugs*

Another thing is, it's not that I am sooo different that I'm a total social outcast
Just slightly different in my way of thinking, and some other things
Even that considers me as 'different', 'weird' etc
But even if I'm a total social outcast, which I don't mind being one
I was and am not wrong

Yes I am different, but I am not wrong
Same goes to other people that dared to be different

Monday, January 3, 2011

You'll understand, if....

We agree that we differentiated ourselves.
Our image and everything is different (laughter).
I want to think of it as a compliment.
We are DIFFERENT, but we're NOT WRONG 
~ CL OSEN interview~


It's not because I'm a singer that I listen to songs and practice singing,
but because I love singing and dancing that I am a singer
If there comes a time that this starts to feel like it's nothing more than just a job,
I think I would quit with no regrets
If it's not fun anymore, there's no reason to do it anymore
~CL Vogue Interview~


I just want to live doing meaningful work.
NOT to SOMEONE ELSE, but MEANINGFUL TO ME
right now, that is to sing and dance, which is why I am doing this work
~CL Vogue Interview~


I don't like being alone in a dessert, 
but I like being alone in a big city
~CL Vogue Interview~


Truthfully, even if I have only one friend my entire life, that would be enough. Whether that's my husband or boyfriend, I'd like it to be someone that I love.~CL Vogue Interview~



I really, really admire you, CL of 2NE1